I am Terrorist!

As soon as I entered the plane of an international airline that was to leave for Paris from Houston, I realized that, inside the plane, I was the only Pakistani amongst the other passengers. I placed my handbag in the luggage box, and floated on the comfortable seat. Air Hostess placed the glass of Orange juice on the specific place designed for it and now she was serving the other passengers.

There was one month tiredness on me, so I started feeling sleepy the next moment, BUT a sudden thought WOKE ME up. I thought, since I am the only Pakistani traveling in this plane, so if during the Flight, “Something” happened to the plane and all the other passengers including me were killed, the next day all the world media and newspapers will be highlighted with the news that “Airplane destroys On Flight in a suicide blast, all passengers including the Pakistani suicide bomber killed”. With this news some proofs of my being Terrorist will also be provided, for instance that from the crashed airplane an unharmed passport was found, cameras fixed at the Houston airport reveal that the Terrorist after getting his boarding card, went in and out of the Briefing Lounge in a state of restlessness and continued smoking, He was seen off by two Pakistanis whose looks were of some terrorists; he whispered and murmured with them for some time. Some other solid proofs of him being the terrorist are also found, one of them is that he was seen several times passing by a religious “Madrassah”, although the Madrassah was opposite to his office but he could have opted for some other route for his office. In some part of his life he also grew a beard which he shaved off after two weeks because it scratched. He was mostly seen by people offering Eid Prayers. One big proof is that in his recent journey he changed one of his routes, and its details are that he was to go from Paris to New York and from New York to Toronto BUT; He went from Paris straight to Toronto and then came from Toronto to New York!

I thought that in the presence of such solid proofs of my being a terrorist, crack down against Pakistanis will be started in several countries. On the other hand my friends in Pakistan (in a state of surprise) will say to each other “Yaar! He didn’t seem to be like that, but who knows of a human being”.
The Pakistani Government, to defend the international propaganda as a result of this attacks will record there statement that it was a totally personal act of terrorism so the cause should not be related to Islam or Pakistan.
With this my family will be arrested, and possibly be handed over to America, a large scale arresting will be done and with this it will however be agreed upon that I had done the terrorism.

With these horror thoughts my sleep flew off, so in order to backup myself I decided to make my thinking positive, I thought that with these baseless and fake statements, how can the world consider me as a terrorist? With these pin pointing, sensible people won’t ask there governments that why is someone being declared as the culprit when the act is not yet proved? BUT my positive thinking remained no longer because I remembered that when the “Suspects” of 9-11 & 7-7, are declared as the “Culprits”, without any Judicial trials, why would in my case all the formalities of Justice be fulfilled?

These of my thoughts pushed me back into the ditch of depression. Now I had no other way out, except the one that I should ask ALLAH (SWT) for help, so I closed my eyes and with some Arabic verses I prayed to GOD that
“O’ GOD ,get this plane to its destination safely and unharmed”, but I recited these Arabic verses in my heart, if I had recited them in a high voice then with other passengers I would have also believed that I am a terrorist.

This essay took me 1 hour to translate as the URDU was very difficult,BUT i hope you’ll understand it,pardon me for grammar and tenses mistake,the main thing is that you understand what the writer actaully meant.It is taken from “Rozne Dewaar” written by Atta-ul-Haq Qasmi.